我係桃花王？？？

Ｄ型 重量級桃花王

重量級桃花王係愛情方面，你有無人能及既耐力同毅力，其他人覺得「只可遠觀不可褻玩」既目標，你都可以追到手，你既朋友都封你做偶像。
其實你一向做任何事都極具責任感，你希望將每件事都做好，絕不鬆懈。所以你追女仔絕對有耐性，好多時ｄ女友就係因為俾你既誠意而感動到。

桃花指數：☆☆☆☆☆

to my dear...

hey babe...

i'm feeling very uneasy today..
i duno why, i'm really tired.
tired not only in school and life...
but also in relationship...

i felt a bit desperate...
a feeling to be alone, to be deserted...
but also a feeling of loneliness...

it's a sign of danger,
a feeling i never want...



then i went to your xanga...
heard the song,
saw your words...

suddenly i felt a lot easier.
duno why, but i felt you here with me...
and you're telling me "everything's gonna be fine..."

so i'm fine now...
thank you my love...
coz of you, i found myself again...


my dad's coming next week,
the stress' pushing in now.
...there is a silent shout of nervousness...

7/26 2:11am

In my past relationships...
i didnt know how to treasure my loved ones...
i was selfish...
and irresponsible at times...

but this time, i feel different...
i feel like i really wanna cherish u...
to hold and to protect...
to be ur man...
someone u can count on...

after reading what u wrote today...
i felt so touched, so warm...
i really wanna write the story with u... whatever the ending will be...
i'll be the one who protects u...
the one whom u can lean on...



I'll be your angel

7/25

nearly had a car crash today...
i wasnt being myself...
didnt know where i was going...
didnt know what i was thinking...






my heart aches so much...












suddenly realize...


i care for u more than i think i do...

a bird untied

This blog... suddenly found out that it's more abt my deep feelings...
and mostly negative ones... -__-"
i guess that's coz i really feel like writing when i'm upset...
and this, it has the record of my inner-inner-most heart...
whoever wants to know me best... here's the place...
if u have the patience to sit through my poor english... haha

these days, i feel like a new life is startin...
i've been away for 2 yrs, this is a time for transformation...
i'm kindda used to the US culture now, and also startin to distanced with the HK culture...
steppin in between, i find myself confused...

things had happened... and much more in the past 1 1/2 yrs...
a lot of strugglin, a lot of pain... but still there were happiness...

now, things have past... people are leavin...
and my mum is leavin also...
suddenly feelin like i have to grow up still a little bit more...
i have to be an adult, and be responsible...
it's a big change for me... to feel like bein in charge for my own life...
yes... for the first time...
the very first time...

and i'm glad i've met someone...
someone who is there for me...
someone i feel like i can count on...
and someone who is willing to back me up...

this is the time i need it most...

i mite be really tired and frustrated...
and u will have to bear me...
it's a big change for me...
and i'm glad u're here...

let's walk through this together...
you and me...

walk with me...
be there for me...
bear my childishness...
forgive my wrongs...
accept my stubbornness...
give me freedom to fly... like a bird untied...
and be the cage that i can find rest and peace...

be my one and only...
the one that i will not let go...

have faith in me...
and i'll give my best...
i always do!

love u...

change

seems like my blog has been deserted..
i wonder if anyone even come here anymore..
oh well, it's just a place where i record down all my feelings and growth...
sometimes when i look back at the past self..
i see changes..
and glad enough, they are good changes..

maybe she's rite..
i've been changing..
but i can only see ME wanting to change,
wanting to get better at all things...

and i know who i am...
thx for my frd in reminding me...
it doesnt make sense at all..

i know who i am, and who i wanna be..
so that's enough i guess?!

if she thinks i'm the same as the other guys...
then i'll let her see..
and she will see..
in the future.. i'll show her..
and prove her wrong...
(though she'll never admit she's wrong.. fuck..)

i'll be who i am..
whether u like it or not..
and trust me.. i'm not the same as them..

7/19

"我會永遠陪著你
做你的根 你翅膀
陪你飛　飛回去我們的窩"











...暈了...

i'm really sorry to hear abt the result...
i can never imagine how that feels...
and there's nothing i can do for u...

just hope everything's gonna be fine...
for all my friends also...
it seems like they're all goin through a though time...

starting to feel life, isnt it?
there is something that we just have to face...
if we run away from it, we are losers...
and it's the worst, losing to ourselves...

i dun really know how to cheer people up...
but i'll try my best...

and i want to be someone who is reliable to u
and anybody else i care...

to give safety and comfort,
and to protect all the precious ones around me...

that's who i wanna be...
and i'll strive for its success.

sweetness

unexpectedly...
i told u abt it...
glad that nothing bad happened...

i dun wanna screw up again...
i've screwed up enough for the past year...

actually i'm really quite tired...

wanting someone to be there for me...
feeling a bit weak after all these...
and now suddenly realize it's time to let go, it's not easy...
but i guess i've done everything i could, i've really tried my very best...
it's been a year and a half...
and i'm now exhausted...

there isnt any communication anymore...
what am i to her, i do not know...

suddenly wanna listen to damien rice -_-"

but guess what...
u're sweet...

i hope everything's fine when u come back tonite...
and no matter what...
i'm going to be there for u...

another tough time

back in US again... a 28 hrs trip... devastating...

i got to think about a lot in between time...
when i'm all by myself, quiet and trapped...

i like time alone...
that's when i can refresh myself...
i'm an introvert, as the personality test tells...
but i'm alrite with that, i enjoy my quiet time...
i thought abt future, and some people...

it's goin to be a big change... a one i was always hopin for...
another transition, decisions to make, important ones...

i thought abt basketball again...
feel like kindda wasted, but my heart isnt fully on it now...
what should i do, when i cant put it down, but dun wanna pick it up again...
someone came to me and asked me to help in basketball field...
it sounded attractive, but do i wanna pick it up again...?

i duno...
i feel kindda lost...

1 more month and i'll be totally independent...
in another sense, left alone... for the 1st time of my life...


the last couple of days has been great...
i had some great time with my frds... and met a new one...
it's great, we had some great time together...

and now it jst seems like everything starts again...
yes... AGAIN...