Taking for granted

Things are finally settling down...
I've been severely lacking in sleep...

Finally... I'm starting to feel numb....
I guess that serves it well...
Now I should focus on myself...
I cant keep being a slack...
I gotta do well... make things work...
And I know one day... I'll worth all that...
I guess now is jst not the time...

I need self-improvement now...
Get better... stronger... independent...
Then there will be no more excuse whatsoever...
No questioning, no shame...

Future is what I need...
so I gotta work hard now...

For myself... it's time to let go...
I know it, I knew it...
It's time to face myself... and keep strengthening...

I want no excuse, I want no weakness...
I want myself... and I want it strong.
It's good, being broken, and to struggle up...
Though the scar is there... but

Victory devoid of danger, is victory devoid of glory... Right?

I need time.
I need myself.